2007-11-20

Repeating the Karma

How not to repeat the karma of your own relationship with your mom is to learn how a parent should be when you become one.
Or, maybe, it is better to start learning the knacks earlier when you step into a marriage.

Becoming a man's wife is where you can observe the karma pattern of your mom.
You act like your mom. Copying the ways she treats your dad, saying the same words as she does and using the same vocabs, complaining the same things which you used to think they weren't big deals to nag about.

Nothing is to late to make amendment! Because you are only living together with you fiance.
So, every resentful pattern that leads you back into the karma is amendable!

Living out of the karma is your goal to reach and task to complete as a woman.

I want to be a new woman~~~~~~~~~
A new species of women.
Being a traditional one is not the compromise I can wedge myself into.

2007-11-19

Stepping into Mist

There are never signs for you when you are at your turning points of your life. The pathes toward the big changes of one's life just come in seconds with the most unnoticable cover as camouflage. You don't think it is a big deal to step on it and when you do, it is no turning back!

The whole chaotic disater begins with the consent saying "yes."

"Yes" this simple consensual word has a magical power that mesmerizes you into an illusional state to believe a promised land waiting ahead. But it doesn't prevent the invisible factors from going wrong on the way.

First you say "yes," then comes the trouble! Game has begun and rules are waiting for you to follow. Nobody knows how long it will end or how it will end, but one thing for sure now is, you've already stepped a foot into the gate of chaos and the rest of the unknown is acting eagerly to drag you into it !

You are wondering if you'd made the right decision and are still observing the moves around you to see if you could turn you back and walk away if the situarion became the causation of your unhappiness.