寫完論文,最大的缺點就是,多了時間,多了娛樂.
吃飯,逛街,看電影
之前閉關時,最大的心願就是"趕緊寫完"
妝也不重要,衣服的搭配也無所謂,一心一意就是寫論文
最近"大開殺戒" NET買了1100 nt (白上衣,粉背心,粉運動褲)
花雪紡 430 nt
金背包 600 nt
紫無袖 550 nt
廟裡拜拜 1339 nt
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Ooh~~~~~
2006-07-30
2006-07-29
One Year Older~Happy Birthday
Just got home from seeing this movie "Lake House" with Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock in it. Touching in a way and extremely romantic. I'm still thinking about the timeline in the movie. How did they meet exactly?
My coworker told me to let go, just focus on the moment and the eternal love of them. In the movie, they mentioned a book by Jane Austin called "Persuasion." I never read it, but according to the movie, it was about a couple who met and somehow got aparted, waiting for each other for a long long time and finally g0t a second chance to be together but was wondering whether it was too late to pass the best timing to make their love work.
Anyway.... from the notion of the book. I guess.... in case, one day I might regret it~
Let's sing the "Happy Birthday" to the person of one's mind.
Happy Birthday to YOU~u
Happy Birthday to YOU~uu
Happy Birthday to YOU~uuu~
Happy Birthday to YOU----------
My coworker told me to let go, just focus on the moment and the eternal love of them. In the movie, they mentioned a book by Jane Austin called "Persuasion." I never read it, but according to the movie, it was about a couple who met and somehow got aparted, waiting for each other for a long long time and finally g0t a second chance to be together but was wondering whether it was too late to pass the best timing to make their love work.
Anyway.... from the notion of the book. I guess.... in case, one day I might regret it~
Let's sing the "Happy Birthday" to the person of one's mind.
Happy Birthday to YOU~u
Happy Birthday to YOU~uu
Happy Birthday to YOU~uuu~
Happy Birthday to YOU----------
2006-07-28
There are times......
There are times that I feel like to talk about my family. Because they are one of the reason why I always wish to live some ways beyond their expectations.
When I say "my family," it doesn't mean only my parents and younger brother.
It concludes all the extended family from my mother's side. She has four older sisters and a younger brother. My uncle sort of represents the whole family.
It is good to have such a strong family sometimes, but sometimes it's stressful as hell. Because no one would allow you to have a room of your own.
Ah~~ long story.
It makes me feel special sometimes because seldom people would have such a strong family that always invite you over for dinners. Going out with cousins shopping or dinners, which I seldom have to pay. Because my mom is the younger one. I have older cousins before me to pay for me. Traditionally, your elders or older brothers & sisters would pay for you as a manner.
Or I would have my aunts and uncle to worry me when there are typhoons. I live alone by myself in Taichung. (Taichung is my mom's hometown, my family lives in Taipei) They would pick me up to their places for meals, in case I might starve to death. Such and such.......... I sometimes do think that I am a lucky person to have others care for me.
But.......the downside to this strong bond is that this strong family have a very set concept about how ' a female' should be.
Ever since I was a little girl, I was someone out of my mom's expectation.
I always talked back with my own opinion and never dressed up to the way my mother like.
What could I say? Different tastes?
Anyway, I never agreed with what my mother thinks a woman should be.
When you can't agree with your mother, perhaps for other women, the issue is simple. But to me, when I can't agree with my mother, it is like I can't agree with the whole family, her family.
On the previous post, I talked about the 'work' plan they have for me. Their ideas are like I couldn't decide what I should do because I am a woman. And I should have others to think about because one day I would become someone's wife and someone's mother.(The thing is that I am still single, should I plan something that I have no control over? ) My part-time work right now can't mean anything to them because it is not a full-time job with a set monthly pay. But what they don't understand is my part time job with the hourly pay could earn more than someone with the full-time job with monthly pay. Ah~~~~~another story.
This sweet burden leads me to write my thesis into one that tries to analyse women and their relationships with their mothers.
How women should live more and fully beyond the name of "women" with diverse choices? How women should gain their freedom of choice by identifying with their mothers through the feminine genealogy and instill their new provocative elements into it?
I am reading a book called, " The Abyss of Freedom."
I am trying, I don't know how far I could go on.
When I was constructing my master thesis, I was doing research on Determinism and Free Will. Which is the theory that talks about wheather freedom exists when we are living in social norms with morality?
For me, that is something difficult to understand. But I managed to read some, before my advisor pointed out that the entity of my concept is about 'women' and I shouldn't explore my views through the male philosophers.
Well.....I am still curious about how those philsophers think about "freedom"
If I could know more about what 'freedom' is, then perhaps I can apply that on women.
When I say "my family," it doesn't mean only my parents and younger brother.
It concludes all the extended family from my mother's side. She has four older sisters and a younger brother. My uncle sort of represents the whole family.
It is good to have such a strong family sometimes, but sometimes it's stressful as hell. Because no one would allow you to have a room of your own.
Ah~~ long story.
It makes me feel special sometimes because seldom people would have such a strong family that always invite you over for dinners. Going out with cousins shopping or dinners, which I seldom have to pay. Because my mom is the younger one. I have older cousins before me to pay for me. Traditionally, your elders or older brothers & sisters would pay for you as a manner.
Or I would have my aunts and uncle to worry me when there are typhoons. I live alone by myself in Taichung. (Taichung is my mom's hometown, my family lives in Taipei) They would pick me up to their places for meals, in case I might starve to death. Such and such.......... I sometimes do think that I am a lucky person to have others care for me.
But.......the downside to this strong bond is that this strong family have a very set concept about how ' a female' should be.
Ever since I was a little girl, I was someone out of my mom's expectation.
I always talked back with my own opinion and never dressed up to the way my mother like.
What could I say? Different tastes?
Anyway, I never agreed with what my mother thinks a woman should be.
When you can't agree with your mother, perhaps for other women, the issue is simple. But to me, when I can't agree with my mother, it is like I can't agree with the whole family, her family.
On the previous post, I talked about the 'work' plan they have for me. Their ideas are like I couldn't decide what I should do because I am a woman. And I should have others to think about because one day I would become someone's wife and someone's mother.(The thing is that I am still single, should I plan something that I have no control over? ) My part-time work right now can't mean anything to them because it is not a full-time job with a set monthly pay. But what they don't understand is my part time job with the hourly pay could earn more than someone with the full-time job with monthly pay. Ah~~~~~another story.
This sweet burden leads me to write my thesis into one that tries to analyse women and their relationships with their mothers.
How women should live more and fully beyond the name of "women" with diverse choices? How women should gain their freedom of choice by identifying with their mothers through the feminine genealogy and instill their new provocative elements into it?
I am reading a book called, " The Abyss of Freedom."
I am trying, I don't know how far I could go on.
When I was constructing my master thesis, I was doing research on Determinism and Free Will. Which is the theory that talks about wheather freedom exists when we are living in social norms with morality?
For me, that is something difficult to understand. But I managed to read some, before my advisor pointed out that the entity of my concept is about 'women' and I shouldn't explore my views through the male philosophers.
Well.....I am still curious about how those philsophers think about "freedom"
If I could know more about what 'freedom' is, then perhaps I can apply that on women.
2006-07-24
Clock is Ticking
I'm asked many times by people around me regarding my work, ever since I finished my schoolwork. They would like to know how I'll plan for my future? Will I continue support myself with English teaching or will I like to try something else, something steady with monthly pay and certain benefits?
This is something many Taiwanese care about?
What do you do for living?
How much money do you make a month?
Which leaves you no room to take a breath.
Last Saturday, I had dinner at my uncle's house. He tried to talk to me about the future plan I have for myself and my family.
What's the better plan to settle down if I didn't want to move back to Taipei?
What's more realistic to do as a woman, that one day I may live my life with a husband and some children? (One day????)
And for the future sake, I should accept the arranged-work because "Kuan-Tsi" is impoartant in Taiwan. (The job that I've already turned down and only two people could understand why I refused to take)
All of the questions from my uncle's suffocated me for a while. He was not the first one that concerned about my work, but he was the one in the family that owned the power to make me feel suffocated.
This is something many Taiwanese care about?
What do you do for living?
How much money do you make a month?
Which leaves you no room to take a breath.
Last Saturday, I had dinner at my uncle's house. He tried to talk to me about the future plan I have for myself and my family.
What's the better plan to settle down if I didn't want to move back to Taipei?
What's more realistic to do as a woman, that one day I may live my life with a husband and some children? (One day????)
And for the future sake, I should accept the arranged-work because "Kuan-Tsi" is impoartant in Taiwan. (The job that I've already turned down and only two people could understand why I refused to take)
All of the questions from my uncle's suffocated me for a while. He was not the first one that concerned about my work, but he was the one in the family that owned the power to make me feel suffocated.
2006-07-15
Thinking my way out of maze~
I should have finished correcting my thesis by now and hand it on time before the end of July to get my diploma. But, ever since that, I've been seeing people, having dinners, feeling lazy and longing for a vacation. It is great meeting your friends talking your heart out and in the meantime, getting something back and brewing it in your head relating to certain issues.
Tonight, I went out with 2 coworkers for late dinner at spicy hot pot store and talked about the problems and complains in our working place. Things that struke me into writing thing right now are about 3 issues. One is about men and women relationship, the other is about one's relationship with one's mother and the last one is about 'white superiority' phenomenon in Taiwan.
I can't really think right now. Because it is really late and I am tired.
I'll write more individually to these 3 issues in my head tomorrow.
Tonight, I went out with 2 coworkers for late dinner at spicy hot pot store and talked about the problems and complains in our working place. Things that struke me into writing thing right now are about 3 issues. One is about men and women relationship, the other is about one's relationship with one's mother and the last one is about 'white superiority' phenomenon in Taiwan.
I can't really think right now. Because it is really late and I am tired.
I'll write more individually to these 3 issues in my head tomorrow.
2006-07-12
Dominic Chong
My bad friend Nick said: if I don't put something ~DIRTY~ on my blog, people will lose interest in reading it.
So, for you, Nicky-----------
Image from Google.com
2006-07-08
A faithful fan
Looking foward to Harry Potter 7 coming ! Wonder who would be written to death by Rowling?
Would it be Harry/ Ron? Hermione and Ron? Harry/ Hermione?
I bet Harry and Ron.
Would it be Harry/ Ron? Hermione and Ron? Harry/ Hermione?
I bet Harry and Ron.
2006-07-05
86+ 88 +89 / 3 = 83 ????
Score means everything when you try to prove of certain capability. ( this statement isn't exactly correct, but that is how it works in Taiwan) Of course, it matters in sport games, one point makes a great different bewteen win or lose. Here in Taiwan, getting high score in school tells how well you perform, and how people would think of you as a student. The standard is pretty simple, good score/ good student, bad score/ not good student. I hope, the new parents nowadays will not use the scores to judge their kids. But according to the previous event happened in Taichung, it seems that kids are still competing with others by getting higher scores.
It makes a little bit sense for education before college because students can't choose the subjects in schools. All they have to do is showing how much they digest and absorb from the general subjects they learn. If they didn't get good grades, it means they didn't work hard enough. However, it is whole different matter in the university courses.
I majored in Literature in the university. Everytime my mom received my school report card, she would call and ask why I got this and that in certain subjects. I never could explain myself clear enough because she would never understand that I chose the course by teachers. I enjoyed some teachers' courses because they allowed you to talk freely in classes and they knew how to guide you to think further, the only flaw was, they didn't give students high scores.
Anyway, the reason why I brought this up is because I think I was subconsciously judging myself with scores and value my capability with it.
Or I really use it consciously to value myself?
Last Friday, I had my oral defense for my thesis. I didn't know I would get grades for oral defense, until two days before the event my friend told me the news and said it would be recorded in my school report. I thought it was merely pass or fail thing.
That morning, I was nervous and in a hurry, tried to pick up the snack boxes I ordered and hurried to school. (It is the culture thing, we prepare drinks and snacks for committee, they could eat it while listening to your presentation. Kind of bribe, make them focusing on the food and miss the parts you mis-represent) one of the member was half hour late, but fortunately I wasn't so nervous and could explain everything they asked.
After the short discussion between the committees, they congratulated me and said I' ve done a good job.
I was relieved until I saw my evaluation form. 83, that was, an 83. The evaluation form before mine in the pile was 88.
The first thing came to my mind was, 'Gosh, I was lower than the average! How could that be?'
The TA in the office kept saying, 'Oh, got over it, you didn't fail.'
For a couple of minutes, I was comforting myself thinking that, 'yeah, what if I failed?'
Until I had lunch with one of the committee member and she told me that my advisor really liked my work. So, I couldn't help and asked her, 'why I only got 83 if everyone kept telling me I was good?' (it didn't seem appropriate, but I couldn't help it)
Ha~~~it turned out I didn't just get 83. The lead member mis-calculated the grades.
I am wondering how 'grades' can represent one's ability in something?
Especially, when there isn't the correct answer.
why can't they evaluate your work, just tell you 'pass' or 'fail' and list the reasons why?
Mmmm...........
It makes a little bit sense for education before college because students can't choose the subjects in schools. All they have to do is showing how much they digest and absorb from the general subjects they learn. If they didn't get good grades, it means they didn't work hard enough. However, it is whole different matter in the university courses.
I majored in Literature in the university. Everytime my mom received my school report card, she would call and ask why I got this and that in certain subjects. I never could explain myself clear enough because she would never understand that I chose the course by teachers. I enjoyed some teachers' courses because they allowed you to talk freely in classes and they knew how to guide you to think further, the only flaw was, they didn't give students high scores.
Anyway, the reason why I brought this up is because I think I was subconsciously judging myself with scores and value my capability with it.
Or I really use it consciously to value myself?
Last Friday, I had my oral defense for my thesis. I didn't know I would get grades for oral defense, until two days before the event my friend told me the news and said it would be recorded in my school report. I thought it was merely pass or fail thing.
That morning, I was nervous and in a hurry, tried to pick up the snack boxes I ordered and hurried to school. (It is the culture thing, we prepare drinks and snacks for committee, they could eat it while listening to your presentation. Kind of bribe, make them focusing on the food and miss the parts you mis-represent) one of the member was half hour late, but fortunately I wasn't so nervous and could explain everything they asked.
After the short discussion between the committees, they congratulated me and said I' ve done a good job.
I was relieved until I saw my evaluation form. 83, that was, an 83. The evaluation form before mine in the pile was 88.
The first thing came to my mind was, 'Gosh, I was lower than the average! How could that be?'
The TA in the office kept saying, 'Oh, got over it, you didn't fail.'
For a couple of minutes, I was comforting myself thinking that, 'yeah, what if I failed?'
Until I had lunch with one of the committee member and she told me that my advisor really liked my work. So, I couldn't help and asked her, 'why I only got 83 if everyone kept telling me I was good?' (it didn't seem appropriate, but I couldn't help it)
Ha~~~it turned out I didn't just get 83. The lead member mis-calculated the grades.
I am wondering how 'grades' can represent one's ability in something?
Especially, when there isn't the correct answer.
why can't they evaluate your work, just tell you 'pass' or 'fail' and list the reasons why?
Mmmm...........
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